Tuesday, March 31, 2015

Cold

I appreciate the cold air.
Cleansing and refreshing
And when it stings against my face
I imagine i'm receiving a blessing--
A penance
A purification through the pain
See fire destroys
But ice sustains
It preserves
It maintains.
Really....
I'm hot enough already.
Don't need much more
To set me ablaze.

Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Inspired

I want so much to say
Its you who inspires me.
But that would be a lie
And at this point in my life
I just haven't got the time--
To pretend
To envy
To strain to feel
What I don't.

Its the empty and the lonely times
Its the anger and the rage
Its the cold and hot and ups and downs
That make me want to create.


I want so much to say
That I feel you deep inside
That I speak to you every day
That its you who keeps me alive
But that would be a lie
And at this point in my life
I just haven't got the time
To pretend
To envy
To strain to feel
What I used to hide. 

Monday, March 23, 2015

gradient white

In my unfinished draft of my poem gradient, i'd forgotten to post this also unfinished draft of the white portion. I've no idea where it goes. or how it really fits in. but here it is, in it's unfinished splendor....

Ever wonder why

I've felt this way for a while now--
 Cold and empty inside.
 No words to write
Because there's no life to describe.

Tuesday, March 17, 2015

My hand reaching

Since I'm the one with the pencil....I penciled in some nails (since in reality I bit them all the way down)

Wednesday, March 11, 2015

If I sit and stare long enough....

things like this happen


If I'm in the car, I start doodling what I see--most of the times, it's sketches of my feet.

If I'm in church, I start doodling on the weekly newsletter or writing all over my hands.

Then I take my doodles and throw them in the trash.

Maybe I'll start taking little pics of them and then throw them in the trash--just like I did with this banana on my desk.  I ate the banana, then threw the scarp paper away.  But now it's here for you to enjoy :)

J