Tuesday, February 28, 2006

HAPPY MARDI GRAS

okey dokey! so its the end of mardi gras and we start lent tomorrow! what are YOU giving up for lent? i'm giving up fried food. anyways heres my mardi gras season

saturday: i go to toth and iris and dum dum dum ENDYMION IS CANCELLED!
sunday: i go to bacchus its shuts down for an hour or something like that. i needed to pee, but THERE AIN'T NO PLACE TO PEE ON MARDI GRAS DAY! or on the sunday before mardi gras day soooo i go home and only see like 3 bacchus floats
monday i stay home and i dont move... it was ridiculous: my amount of inactivity. i was like a slug hehe
tuesday: i go to a metairie parade. i get a sun burn and i leave way early.

YAY I CANT WAIT TILL NEXT YEAR *cough*

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Jillien the successful Crammer!

So i have this gift. well more like an ability. to cram immediatedly before a test and get an A. or write a paper an hour before its due and get an A. its weird but i've been able to do it since forever. i know that one of these days its totally going to not work lol but so far it has. i'm just soooo lazy. you know for someone who expects A's i dont really go about working at all for them. i just expect them like they are owed to me. thats horrible. i need better work ethic. i need to earn an A. or study for a test ahead of time. i mean i wonder how my grades would be if i studied.

you know it just makes you realize that everyone is good at different things. i'm good at school and others can dance and others can draw and others can build and other can sing or speak or write. its just a matter of special talents... is cramming a talent?

Monday, February 20, 2006

Lets get physical

ok so like a dumb-ass the other day i go to the GYM.... o yes you heard correctly i went to the gym for the SECOND time in 6 months. lol and i worked out like an olympian literally. i worked out like i was the best in shape in the whole freaking gym. i felt sore while i was working out! [usually its afterwards lol]

i started off with lunges with 20 pound weight bar. and i was walking around the gym in lunges. when i finished my legs were shaking uncontrollably so i thought this was a perfect time to start squats lol. during the squats i thought my knees were going to give out on me so i stopped after several repetitions and started the bike on like 10 resistance. for like 10 mins hehehe

the next day was a joke. i could not walk. i mean it. no exaggerations could not walk. i was in excruciating pain. i'm so stupid i should have taken it easy but instead i think i'm invincible. that has been my problem. i just think i'm all powerful. I think i'm in control and i'm not.

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wowzers

anyone who has really spoken to me lately knows that i'm totally stressing out with some problems that i've been going through. and no i won't disclose them, but GOD i wish that someone would just TELL ME what to do and then he/she has to do it. i hate the initiative that i have to put into it. i know that sounds completely anti-proactive but sometimes problems just seem too big to ever be handled by the person it is affecting... does that make any sense at all? i just want to remove myself from my body and let it sit there like a lump. i'm in a state of complete disbelief and i dont want to get out of it. i just want to stay there and never have to open my eyes. ya know what i mean? i'm just not strong enough for this.

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

To You©

Among the one loved above the rest
a score much lower for this test
than she with whom you share a past
and I much better come in last

Monday, February 13, 2006

ME

I've concluded a conclusion as my cuz would say...

I'm going to chill out
I'm going to do my work
I'm going to go to work
I'm going to work out

I think my stress comes from me not doing what i should do and then stressing out over it. Its ridiculous. I'm going to set a goal. Thanks to everyone who reads and puts up with my whining :)