Full Life

My life is full to the brim
But I always find time to fit you in
Because You are my friend
I wish you felt the same on your end....

Story of my Life

I remember there was a time

When I was willing to throw it all away for you---

For someone whom I loved, 

But for someone who played me as a fool.

I was standing on the edge

Not so much ready to jump,

But to fall

For you.

Lived and died for you

Woke up and thought of you

Fell asleep and dreamt of you

Was ready to give it up for you

Thought I lived for you

But I was tricked by you...

What a fool

I was.

Took time to get over you

Not the same as forgive you

Not the same as fall out of love for you

But to move on from you

Moved far away

And stayed away

And strayed from faith

Then made my way back again

Had to suffer and repent again

and again

And again.

Had to find Christ when I was broken

Had to rebuilt the trust I had forgotten

Had to ask God for a new heart that was open

To seeing the goodness that I had forsaken.

I was and remain a fool.

A fool who has made mistakes

Who loved whom she should have hated

Who trusted when she should have waited

Who felt real things but who spent her time faking it. 

This is the story of my life.