Ice ©

i suppose
it could be nice
to float
and sink
and exist as ice

cold
and hard
then melt away
then flow away
to freeze someday

AWW i hate you

i was supposed to go tubing today to celebrate the end of my birthday but of course i got scheduled into work and now my friends are going to celebrate w/o me because they already set the trip up with the boat people and what not. so i suck and the world sucks right now. i worked friday and work today(saturday) and sunday and monday and tuesday and wednesday. AND THEN i leave for NC on thursday. my gosh i have to leave the state to get a day off. what is up with that? but no one wants to hear me wah wah wah about stuff like this. imma go now.

Willy Wonka vs. Charlie and the Choc. Factory

hmm okay well first let me state that i'm probably the BIGGEST Tim Burton fan ever forever ever. and also let me say that Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory is like one of my all time favorite movies that i've ever seen. it has a lot of subtle themes in it. its wonderful

Okay now to my post:

I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory this afternoon. and while it was classic Tim, and filled with great details from the novel. it was not as good as the original. the umpas were cool but they didnt express the same neutrality, they were scary kind of. i dont know. the songs had cool beats but it didnt convey the same messages. you know? it was funny and good but not as good, and in other aspects much better. in other words you cannot compare the two. they are 2 completely different movies about the same book.

:(

chrsitian left today. he wont be home for about a year; he goes to war on August 20 and this is his last trip home.. its very sad. thats the crazy thing about the marine corps. or any branch of the military i guess, they FORCE you to leave everything and yet the people that join choose to do so. christian is excited to go. i'm not but he is. he wanted this. why would anyone want this?

He was home for about 9 days. it was a good trip. we had some hickups but all in all it was wonderful. The trip to Mississippi, late night IHOP, and my birthday all added up to some good memories. I'm happy.

I'm at work by the way. completely miserable like always, but i'm looking towards the positive and getting off at 3PM yay yay yay!

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY

Yes its true.... my birthday is TODAY. July 27, 1985 or '79 depending on where i'm trying to get in. Thanks to everyone who remembered. and everyone who meant to remember. I have no plans for today but if you have any suggestions... hit me up.

Has anyone ever thought to his/herself how freaky staged pictures are? like those fake cheesy smiles creep me out. i think the most beautiful capture of an individual is when he/she is laughing. those real smiles when you can honestly see the true person underneath. when they dont know they are being photographed and if that millisecond hadn't been photographed no one would have ever even noticed it happened. its kind of like the picture stole the moment from history, and now it only exists in a 4x6 matte print. snatched right out of the air

easy like sunday morning

i had the most incredible sunday. yesterday i went over to my uncle wally and aunt chickie's house in waveland. i took christian and 'the little ones'. They swam the ENTIRE DAY.! it was incredible. christian wasnt any better. they ate and swam. we listened to my uncle's band rock out for a little bit. it was awesome. good good day.

I heard from Whitney last night when i was at tj's. i wish he wouldnt have called me at 12 at night he probably would have caught me at home and i could have spoken to him. i talked to him for like 2 minutes then i had to let him go. i hadn't heard from him since he left; he must have been having a good time. that makes me happy. i'm probably going to call him later.

its really sad. i've noticed that i've become the type of person that doesnt need to stay in touch with anyone... i want to but everything else becomes too important and staying in touch too troublesome. well i CANT do that with Whitney. everyone remind me once a week to call him.

this is a picture of him at 6. i'll find some more recent pictures and post them

I visited blake today and he looks 50689034 TIMES BETTER its wonderful. i really miss him. i want him to go home and i want to visit him all the time. i tried calling everyday since tuesday but his mom and everyone was like he's sleeping... he's not doing well.. everyone can visit thursday and friday.... no answer. I GOT FED UP. and just showed up. i'm happy i did. cuz i got to see him look beautiful.

Christian and I had a great trip last time. i'm not sure what it is about his trip, maybe i'm PMS'ing but i am freaking out about everything. but at the same time he is messing up. he doesnt call me when he says he will and he never wants me to join in. i cant be w/ him and his (my) friends at the same time. it totally sucks. o well

http://www.myspace.com/imtheinfamous

I'm on Myspace now buddies. add me as a friend if you wanna. send me a message if you wanna. and if you dont wanna.. kiss my ass.

he's not worth it. we're done

scary ignorance

so i visit blake at Charity and everyone that works there is RETARDED. more so than one could ever imagine. and they werent very nice. one of the women took 1,523,459,873,402,985 hours just to hand me an admittance card. the other told us to go up the elevator to the 4th floor. we walk out and theres an elevator directly infront of us. we click the up button FOREVER and nothing is happening. by sheer luck we look over and see the other people in the admittance office walking in the opposite direction and an elevator bell sound! SHE DIDNT EVEN TELL US THAT THIS ELEVATOR WAS BROKEN!@!@#$%^$#^% oh and it is hot! in an emergency/ hospital its a muggy musky inferno. and theres a smell.... ew this smell. Blake is lucky i love him because i would never have gone there. but he got transfered to tulane. much better! everyone pray for him please.

one of these days i'm going to stop crying

Remember O most gracious virgin Mary
That never was it known
that anyone who fled to your protection
implored your help
or sought your intercession
was left unaided

inspired, by this confidence
i fly unto thee
o virgin of Virgins, my Mother.
to thee do I come,
before Thee I stand
sinful and sorrowful
O Mother of the Word Incarnate,
despise not my petitions,
but in your mercy hear and answer me.
Amen.

**For You, Blake**

(it might not be perfect, i typed it from memory)

LAST NIGHT!

Act 1 Scene 1 (Mom, Jillien and Whitney sitting watching television on sofa in the living room. Mom and Jillien were watching a medical show w/ much interest, when Whitney comes inside from playing or doing whatever 14 yr. old boys do outside)

Whitney: Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah
Jillien: What did the show just say, mom? Whitney was talking.
Mom: I dont know i couldnt hear
Whitney: BlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlah

Jillien taps Whitney in the side to shut him up.

Whitney: UHHH YOU BROKE MY BONES!
Jillien: What i hardly touched you?!?!
Whitney: you broke my bones you broke my bones
Mom: Jillien you know you are stronger than Whitney.

Jillien Rolls Her Eyes

End of Act 1 Scene 1


****to Whitney's credit he wasnt that pussy-like. but for theatrical purposes i had to embellish.****

because of you ©

Hold me closer
so I can't see
cuz all I need is time to be

and all I need is time to rest
because my life hasn't passed the test
and you can turn and hide away.
but the green is far today

so keep acting like it hasnt happened
and keep acting like it doesnt bother you.
just like it doesnt bother me
because i know the truth.

If you want to help me
all i need from you
is to hold me closer
so I cant see
cuz all i need is time to be.

no sleep sleep for you!

ok so last night i went with my friend, bryan, to see the batman begins movie. (by the way: bryan influences almost 75% of my posts, but anyway) it was a cool movie especially when...well i wont say which parts i dont want to ruin it for those who havent seen it, but there are some pretty wicked parts. the movie didnt let out until 12:30 and he had to be up for 4' in the morning. this is my public apology to bryan. sorry you got at the most 3 hours of sleep last night bryan. :) hope it was worth it.

Superman the ONLY super hero *to me*

okay so the war of the super heroes proves that supposedly batman is the ultimate superhero... the only superhero with no super powers.. it all came down to superman vs batman. well if you ask me. (which of course you didnt but i'm going to voice my opinion anyway because its my blog) batman isnt a superhero to begin w/. he had all of those super suits. he had to put a costume on to be super.. that totally sucks. what if he couldnt get to his cave to get his suit? or something like that occurs. superman was the only SUPER HERO that was a superhero no matter what he was wearing. he had to dress up as a civilian,a regular old joe as his disguise to hide the fact that he was a superhero underneath. all the others were regular people that had to become/transform into superheroes. i guess thats what started my entire infactuation. someone hiding his greatness while all the others have to paint it on. i wonder which one i am sometimes. i'm probably closer to a supervillian... What do you think?

Help me I'm sleepy

So i had to peeeeel myself out of bed this morning. my windows are all boarded up (hurrican precaution) so my room in pitch BLACK. it doesnt help that i hung out by my cousin jasmine's house until 2 in the morning knowing that i had to be downtown st. charles by 9AM. i'm extremely tired and cranky. i just want to close the door to my office laydown on the carpet and go to sleep... I wonder if i should. but then theres always the chance that my attorney's partner (no not life partner) but the other Napoleon Law Firm attorney will come in looking for something in my office. Decisions Decisions... what is a desperate exhausted girl supposed to do? I' m gunna go lay down now.

IM GOING CRAZY WITH ALL THESE PICTURES

These are me and my girls out and having a good time.. the beautiful Cheryl, Toni, and of course yours truly me, The Infamous. *JM*

PIctures of my Labor Day (4th of July same damn thing) Weekend

evacuating

my friend bryan just exactly expressed how i feel about this upcoming evacuation: i hope my parents dont make me evacuate; i cant think of anything better to do after a long week of work than being stuck in traffic with my parents.

Refreshing

So I finally hung out with one of my oldest friends yesterday.. well last night. We grew up together. we have lived 6 houses down from each other for literally the last 20 years. All of our lives. We grew up and kinda grew apart. but last night i finally stopped by his house after he called me, and we hung out till around 3 in the morning. We went swimming in his back yard. He told me a story about calling Dominoes that had me almost shitting myself laughing. It was just an all around wonderful night of playing "Can you see it?" (inside joke thingy)

FOAM ©

white
pearl
let it hurl
let it burst
quench my thirst

a body covered in foam

chiseled abs
slippery skin
come on baby
let me in
come one baby
take me out
come on baby
make me shout
louder longer finger fondle
in we go
up we go
down we fall
just let it flow
wrestling mouths
in horny crowds
all together now
in the privacy
of my own foam.

late night worry wart

I hope everyone had a great fourth of July. Christian just left at 10PM to drive back to North Carolina. I'm incredibly worried because I dont know anyone who can spend the entire day in the hot sun playing on the beach and not be tired as balls. I hope that he makes it home on time and in one piece. This was a wonderful visit. We got along better than we have in over a year. It feels good knowing that your best friend is still a good companion. Anyway. Work again tomorrow morning. I sure did enjoy my first day off in a long time though!

I never knew God was into dark comedy**

Do you ever wonder how things exist the way they do. Ok let me clear up that sentence. You know when you wake up in the middle of the night and run straight into the wall. No one is there to see it or to laugh at you but you feel horribly embarrased... Is it because God is really laughing his ass off at you? Or when you spend 2 hours getting ready to go out in wonderful anticipation and then you throw up all over self by the end of the night. lol its just amazing little things that occur that seem out of your control but in SOMEONES control... who's>? one will never know. or maybe.... *DUM DUM DUM* << that was dramatic inflection.

**inspired by: The Almighty Frigg: http://frigg.blogspot.com/2005/06/its-official-god-is-mocking-us-tonight.html