My Little Girl

You're my little girl
and my best friend.
Love you more than life
because my love has no end:
With your beautiful eyes
that you must get from me,
and your sassy attitude,
but from who could that be?
My Little Girl -L-I-A
What can I say?
I live every day
to see your smile
showing all 6 of your teeth.
It makes my heart melt.
In my life,
I've never felt
such pride
inside.
to the LORD I lift
my heart and thanks
for such a precious gift.
And I pray
every night
and every day
for the strength to be the type
of mom to make your life
go right.
Be happy.
Be you.
Stay true.
That's what I wish for you,
My little girl.

Jillien

l Let Go (Reprise)

I have finally let go.
I feel the feeling fleeting
Into nothingness.

Thank God,
I've finally moved on
From the only thing holding me back.

I have finally let go,
And you will notice the change.
You will see that my name
has warped again.

How Tortured Are You?

How tortured are you?
In an infinite megabyte world...
In a sea of 1's and 0's;
In an abyss of fleeting strangers.

How tortured are you?
Melting in a pot of digital waves,
Fading in the vast nothing,
Searching in a world controlled by computer chips.

How tortured are you?
To have no family or friends
To touch or to know
To hold or to show your face to late at night.

How tortured are you?
Now that you know
That you are not alone
You are not alone.

Oh yeah

So I finally graduated. Its seems like i've lost the best form of entertainment I could have ever ask for. I was the type of student that never skipped class. I actually LOVED going to class b/c that was the only time I would learn anything. I'm not the type to go home and diligently read my book and do my homework. Like I've said before: I'm lazy. Nonetheless, I have this kind of memory where if I hear it I remember it. So if i never go to class; i'd never learn anything... Well now its over and there are no brilliant people analyzing poetry for me or explaining the theories of theology and philosophy. No one asking me the tough questions. No one challenging me. I think its time for graduate school. I'm sure they'll bust my balls there. I'll be begging to be a graduate again. Maybe by the time i finish grad school, I'll be so full of knowledge that i will feel content and satisfied. I just need to be accepted. Thats the hard part...

Bootie Dimples

How is it possible for such a skinny person to be so dimply fat!?! Its insane. I'm not good at working out, but I should be... I just don't have the energy. I wonder when I became so lazy and disinterested. i used to be fierce. I even notice that with Lia. She is soo hyper, and I don't have the patience or energy to keep up and i'm only freking 22 years old!!! I feel like an old lady and sometimes I look like an old lady it seems.

Ode to Nora Jones...lol

I, too, yearn for yesterday,
As sweet, soft, amber, airy somethings fill the air.
With eyes closed my heaviness fades away,
And my everything with you I'd love to share.

With eyes open I barely know what to feel,
But somehow you're voice gives me a place to rest.
Slowly my confused wounds begin to heal,
And my heart beats more gently in my chest.

I, too, yearn for yesterday
To a time when my happiness was my only care,
But don't dwell in the past-- they often say;
I admit that never again will I be there.