Wednesday, October 26, 2005
you know those moments when you suddenly see the truth. for a long time my life as been very blurry. i didnt know what to do. i didnt know the right decision. what was right for me. what was going to make me happy. and i was close to making a decision towards the wrong thing. my life has changed dramatically since august. i lost christian, i lost my home, i lost my jobs, i lost my school. and then i start gaining a new life and new friends and new experiences. and new everything but the thing is is that i was just meant to wait. wait until things got better again. i was going to make changes, permanent changes in my life. but that is not the thing to do. i know that right now that that is not the right thing to do.