But I've been feeling compelled to change this bad and slothful behavior of mine. I want to set an example to my children of cleanliness, responsibility, and order. And I'm committed to allowing this cleaning to jump start me into the New Year--starting off with a clean slate.
The maid service came today to clean my house. She was here for 3 hours and cleaned a ton and still couldn't get every surface. There was just too much dirt.
Paying someone to clean my home really made me look at the state of my home. I was double checking her work (not in a haughty way, but in a curious as to how it looks-kinda-way), and I even cleaned some surfaces that she wasn't able to get to.
I mean Superman probably wouldn't have been able to clean my whole house in 3 hours, regardless of being faster than a speeding bullet.
This process of going over her work and noticing the left over surfaces that she couldn't get to made me realize that the standard I used for myself is much lower than the standard I held for her.
And reflecting on that tonight, I'm realizing that I hold almost everyone in my life to higher expectations and standards than I demand of myself.
I demand so much from those around me, and yet feel less than inclined to reciprocate or set an example through my own behavior.
This has to change. If I want respect from my children, I need to show respect.
If I want my baseboards cleaned a certain way, I better get to setting the example.
If I want to be paid attention to, I need to start paying attention to others.
This unbalanced way of leading my life needs to be checked. It's an unfair double-standard, and I'm ashamed of it.