My new Home

ok so i cant remember if i've posted about the assholes that we are buying the new house from but You cant imagine a more incooperative ugly group of people.

They didnt negotiate on the asking price, They didnt put up any closing costs. They didn't fix anything that was wrong with the house after the inspection. The inspector couldnt look at the attic well because they still had all of their personal belongings in there. We ask them to please remove them so we could have a thorough inspection of the attic they said NO. we were supposed to have closed on the 31st of august, they decide they arent going to move out until the 18th of september.

They've dicked us around the entire time, and then to add insult to injury they have the audacity to want to make a deal.... They want to pay us rent until the 31st of september. THE BABY IS DUE OCTOBER 12th. What if the baby comes early? i'll have a week or so to get moved in to the house. It takes longer than that to get a home situated. So let me tell you this: Lee Henry said NO DICE!

Its funny. Now that they need us to be a little understanding and cooperative, we arent willing to do so. What comes around. Maybe if they had been a little nicer... a little more pliable. We would be more consenting. But when you act like an asshole to a young couple that is expecting their first kid, trying to buy their first house: PLEASE DONT ASK FOR FAVORS!. you do not deserve it.

My baby shower

was this sunday! and it was AMAZING. there were so many people there. I got soooo many baby presents. It was incredible. I got everything on my registry and DOUBLE of the most expensive items on there. I got two travel systems, two bedding sets, 3 carriers... the play pin, car seats, clothes, monitor, pump, i mean i cant even name it all. I didnt have any friends there. Just family but what an amazing family i have! there were about 50 people at my baby shower. The cake was amazing, the food was great! the people were happy and generous. I felt very special and loved. It was wonderful!

Not liking something that someone does

does NOT equal

Not liking that individual.

** i can love someone and hate everything they do

To Bryann the Beautiful

I know you were supposed to have come in town sometime in August, but i have yet to hear from you booger. not nice.

My baby shower

I'm having my baby shower this sunday coming up [not today] thats in ONE week. I'm feeling kind of nervous because this is a testament of MY family and how important they think i am by showing up. My mother has gotten a lot of RSVP's but i always worry that no one is going to show up. Its the same reason i've never thrown myself a birthday party or anything, because the embarrassment of noone showing up is extreme for me.

So this baby shower is very important to me. mainly because i dont really think that Lee's family is very enamoured with me. They always communicate how lucky I am for having Lee [and its definitely true] but i dont think they feel that Lee is lucky for having me. get it? My family is very different. they show lee a lot of love and support but when it comes to lee's family i dont think that they feel that lee found himself a smart hardworking woman. Its me that should be counting my blessings. I dont believe they see the positive changes Lee has made since he's been with me, and that makes me feel .... bad/sad/angry/dissappointed. I dont know.
So if this baby shower goes well and everyone that says they are coming shows up... Then maybe this will show that I am a person that many people love and think that i'm a pretty awesome person. It will show the hard work that all of my family put in to making me feel special.

Maybe Lee does have himself a good wife.

I took a small leave of absense for a minute

I havent really been blogging much lately. Not that i have been super busy or anything its just that i kind of ran out of things to say. but i feel inspiration is coming along. I hope.

Happy today

What a good day. I have a good life. It was payday and i didnt know it. Always a nice surprise. I got treated to lunch. I had strawberries for a breakfast snack. I got work done, but at my pace. Our other legal assistant didnt make it in today so we werent stepping on each other's toes all day. I am happy. Thank you Lord for all your blessings.

Too many to love

When i'm in baton rouge i miss everyone at home.

When i'm on the west bank i miss lee in baton rouge

BUT SOON THATS ALL GOING TO CHANGE:

We close at the end of this month. Its all official: its all inevitable. I'm going to move.

So goodbye home of 21 years. Hello reality slap in the face. I think i'm really going to start feeling the truth now. I'm pregnant, married, and on my own. Its strange. It'll be good.

I saw Lee for the first time in over a week yesterday. I dont work on mondays and fridays anymore. So i took opportunitiy to drive up and visit him yesterday. It was wonderful. I really missed him, but he had been at a bachelor party in florida all weekend so he was extremely tired. Nonetheless we had a good time. We ordered pizza and watched tv. it was nice. anyways here are a few highlights from last night:

"whats that smell?"---Jillien

"You don't have to give me a massage, just rub my back a little cuz it hurts"---Lee

"We don't have nicknames for each other just nicknames for each other's parts" ---Lee

Spaceball moment

So now you know, Lonestar, Evil will always prevail over good because good is dumb. -Dark Helmet

At last we meet for the first time for the last time!

My grade worries

during any other normal semester i stress out towards the end but i usually pull it off. I'm a procrastinator, but one that works best under extreme pressure. I guess All procrastinators do, but i'm exceptional lol!

anyways This semester has been the most challenging. Not because of the courses i was taking, but because of everything that i've had to deal with emotionally i think.

The baby, The house, Lola, the high-risk pregnancy thing... School work, homework, papers, tests... A husband, money issues blah blah blah the list just goes on and on.

This semester i only took 15 hours, and so far i have 4 out of 5 A's BUT my grade for British Literature is still not in and the scary part about it is that my grade relies on this research paper that was almost impossible for me to complete. Of course i waited till the last minute [the day before it was due] but i had till 10PM on sunday to turn it in and i started on it at 4PM on saturday. I worked from 4 to 1Am, then i woke up 7:30 sunday morning and worked on the paper from 8AM till about 2:30PM... Thats a lot of time to put into a paper, in my opinion. It has NEVER EVER taken me so long to finish a paper. I've never struggled this hard.

And this is the paper that my grade is going to rely on. So i'm almost 100% certain i will NOT get an A. and i'm super duper dissappointed.

I just think that my brain is burnt out. I've been in school non-stop since January. [we got a 10 day break in between these two semesters] and with all of my other worries, my brain cannot function anymore.

Pray that a miracle occurs and i pull off an A. It would make me so incredibly excited. Especially because the baby comes at the beginning of next semester and i KNOW that it will be very challenging to have a baby and go to school and pull off a 4.0. so i want to get my gpa as high as it can be to cushion the blow of next semesters grades lol.

My house is a zoo

We have the itty bittiest house on the planet and now we have Lola, Tito and Sissy not to forget me my mom and my dad living in it. Its so crazy now because you can't leave tito with lola or sisy b/c he's scared of them, Sissy can't be with lola or tito when she's eating because she attacks them if they get too close. Lola just wanders around and doesnt want anyone to touch her [she's a cat and she growls] Tito can't eat his treats because Lola immediately eats them all. and Lola sits in her litter box, sticks her ass over the side, and shits on the ground. on and on and on where to end?

Its a mad house.

have you ever

done something extremely terrible to another, but not intentionally? Kind of like an act of negligence or an accident. Well i did. recently. And i still can't get it out of my mind. I dont know how to forgive myself. I never ever meant for what happened to happen, but now that it has what do i do about it? how does it go away?

I'm awake!!

So so sad. I'm up at 7 in the morning [tending to lola] and so i decide to get online and check my myspace.

I see that Lee is online but Lee doesnt wake up till bout 8 so i think he must have just left his account up on his laptop.

Nope; us big losers are on myspace super EARLY in the morning.

It makes you wonder if myspace is even that interesting. I'm starting to just get over it. I used to LOVE it but now... maybe i need more friends. Yeh thats it. The only exciting part about myspace is accepting friends.

remember that new emotion i was talking about the other day?

Well i'm in it. Our home is in the process of being bought. Of course it isnt over till its over, but i feel like its as good as ours at this point. Lee has done so much research, asked so many questions, investigated every aspect of this deal. I've never met someone with such motivation and dedication.

My mother has helped us out sooo much financially. She has really helped us afford things. And lee's father has now offered to help us and its getting better and easier and greater as time progresses.

We got Lola's test results today and turns out she doesnt have Toxoplasmosis. So now all we have to wait for are my test results to confirm the same and we will be the happiest people in the WORLD.

Things are really coming together. Thank you Lord for your infinite blessings.

Lola is a pain in the ass

Lola doesnt bite or scratch but she meows very LOUDLY and sometimes you dont even know why. does she want attention?? no thats not it. is she hungry??? no thats not it. does she want to be left alone? ding ding ding.

and its that constant guessing game with her. good thing she's adorable and beautiful and everything else.