It hurts

Why do i torture myself. I've rented Forgetting Sara Marshall for the 3rd time tonight under the "excuse" that my cousin hadn't seen it, but in reality i love to torture myself and watch the man of my dreams dance like a male stripper  on my tele.  

My cousin is in physical pain over her celebrity crush Trace; so we are comforting each other through this very hard time.

"I think sometimes: maybe if i had a boyfriend i wouldn't be so crazy, but look at you....You're married and have a child."

-wow-