I can't say that I have. Up to just a handful of months ago, I've shared my life with a huge, tight-knit family. I've never been without a best friend... or at least not for very long. I've always had a boyfriend, and I've been married since I was 20. I grew up and lived in the same house until I graduated from college--surrounded my by mom, dad, grandmother, and childhood friends that still lived in the neighborhood... I've lived a fully supported life. Always someone there to turn to.
Now my husband's company is relocating our family to North Carolina, and for the first time in my life, I'm faced with unfamiliarity. At first hearing the news, I cried--hard. But since then, I've become numb. The move exists in a surreal little pocket in my mind. It is not yet real. So I feel nothing. Even though I know I should.
Its strange. Every time I mention the move to a friend they ask, "How do you feel?" and I have to make up some feelings.... Normal feelings that normal people would have because I'm scared that if I were to tell them the truth, "I can't feel anything" they would be hurt or think I were heartless or crazy.
So that's where I am today. Where are you?