Wednesday, July 05, 2006

early as hell

wow today was a whopper!

I woke up at 6 in the morning to be able to get to work on time from baton rouge [i work in mid city new orleans] so i'm up super early, and i guess because its summer there was barely any traffic and i made it to work a half an hour early. and work today was KILLER and STRESSFUL. i just dont know what to do sometimes.

I truly am tired of working. I'm 20 years old and i'm tired of working. Maybe its my occupation. Maybe its that i hate what i do. but i just DO NOT feel like going there. I get soooo depressed on a sunday thinking that i have work on wednesday. thats how extreme it is.

But i need the extra bit of cash right now. Lee and I really use the help that my small income makes. Its just a little too close to due date to quit and go somewhere else. I really just want to stay home all day and eat and sleep and do homework [well kind of].

I wish that Lee and I were in a better financial position. so that i wouldnt have to work right now. But Lee is so amazing and its not like he doesnt make a good living. Its just that right now we are trying to put our lives together AND get ready for the baby and all of the money we could have enjoyed, we are not enjoying as much.


  1. Oh Sweetie...
    Pregnancy can be very tough. I worked for the first 6 months of my pregnancy, and it was hell. I wanted to sleep 12 - 16 hours a day (and did on my days off!), and I was extra-emotional. It's entirely normal.
    Do you have the book "What to Expect When You're Expecting", or some other referance that Lee can check out, to let him know what hormonal crap you're going through? Pregnancy is very rewarding, and can be a great early-bonding time for you and the baby, but it is also very draining and can be difficult. Give yourself some grace, and know that in the end, it will all be sooooo worth it!!

  2. Yes i do have that book; my godmother bought it for me and it has been very helpful. Lee is SUPER patient and understanding. I really lucked out. thanks a lot for the encouragement. Sometimes it gets a little too difficult. My stress level always seems too high.

    Thanks again Shiray.


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