People from all over

i get people from all over on here. its interesting: people from viginia, california, new jersey, texas, bunch from louisiana, and then other countries. i wish i knew who everyone was. this is a blogger of a normal person with normal issues that normal people can relate to. lol at least i know you are reading

wow

i cant even express how much i DO NOT want to go back to school. i do not want to go b ack to stressing out over my gpa. or last minute papers or last minute test studying GRRR maybe i should just join the circus

Happy Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior Day

is it not freedom of speech to be able to call December 25 anything you'd like?

i've never made fun of jesus a day in my life and i dont intend to now. its just that everyone forgets exactly why dec. 25 is important. if you dont believe in jesus you arent even supposed to be celebrating. you can have a day devoted to gift giving. BUT it really is a christian holiday. theres also other celebrations going on. but get over the political correctness. who said its not american to get left out. someone is always left out. just because you arent a christian doesnt mean that people shouldnt be allowed to say Merry Christmas. everyone cant be included all the time. and if you dont believe in jesus why do you even care that everyone is celebrating him anyways?

happy holidays everyone. no matter what you believe. no matter what you celebrate. and MERRY CHRISTMAS KIDS. i love you friends family and anyone else who could be reading.

Cool Like That

thats one of my friends. i have called him Cool Like That since i met him. to me thats his name and its hard for me to even remember that his REAL name is David. wow David it just doesnt seem like the right name for him. he looks more like a cool like that. and its funny because all of my friends that dont know him but hear me talk about him refer to him as cool like that, and so does my mom. so this spanish woman with her accent asks how 'cool like that' is doing... lol

just a random post. sorry

So tomorrow is christmas eve huh?

wow its soo incredible. time was going by SO SLOWLY during the hurricane and evacuation and living in a hotel, then living on the westbank with a 6PM curfew, and then 8PM and then 12AM and now its the end of december. i start school on the 7th and everything is supercharged. you know that movie big fish?> well theres a part in the movie when he talks about time stopping. BUT after it stops it goes super fast to catch up. well thats what happened. and now i'm getting busted in the face with time. theres no time. christian comes back in 2 months. thats it 2 MORE MONTHS. and i'll be in school non-stop till next may. i'm a junior trying to keep up my gpa, and after this 'vacation' from the real world i'm faced with the really REAL WORLD all too fast all to suddenly. can i handle it?

Goblet of Fire

sucky thing is that i read all of the books and movies arent that good compared to the books. i know you hear the same thing all the time, but the movies are SOOOO long and yet they leave out SOOOO much!

Fun Fact

I'm a beast at pictionary! the other day a whole bunch of us decided to play boys against girls in pictionary [girls won of course even though the guys were being ridiculously difficult with our topics] anyways here's the fun fact.

Shy away from giving me cartoon topics. i will almost always figure them out. i'm a cartoon junky

DoDoDoDah Dooooo Dah Do [xmen theme song]

so recently i've become addicted to nick gas AND watching the old x-men and spiderman animated series. its WONDERFUL! remembering the story lines and learning new ones and figuring out super heros and villians. it really comes in handy in life :) knowing who apocalypse is and Cable and who Jean Gray turns into and shizite.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTIAN

today is christian's birthday. he turns the BIG 2 1... Its wonderful and sad at the same time because this is such a great birthday and he's spending it in IRAQ! everybody pray for him and his happiness on this day. it must be a kind of sad one for him.

christian i love you :) i hope you are happy and well. can't wait to celebrate with you when you come back.

sitting in a laundry mat... used up 3 60 pound heavy duty big mama jahamba washers. im grody.

Ode to Jason

omy goodness. I saw one of my oldest friends from Immaculate Conception [grade school] at a bar on saturday. can you believe it? we used to be inseperable. to the point where one of his little girlfriends during grade school broke up with him because she was jealous of our relationship. hehehe we were children. well anyways turns out that about 10 years ago i gave him a \best friendship ring. you know what that is... like there are two rings and one says "best" and the other says "friends". anyways he put his on his hunting bag and has kept it for about a decade. he still has his ring. thats unbelievable. well i have a date with him tomorrow. just to catch up for the years that we haven't seen or spoken to each other.

isnt it sad looking back on your life and all the people that you CAN NEVER forget and yet somehow you live your life as if you have forgotten? im very happy

ok guys...

remember how i said i was super nervous. well i'm better now. i'm chilling and everything is GREAT. happy days

Bryan the Beautiful sent me this link....

pretty cool. i figured i'd share it.

http://www.lovethosekids.com/illusions/mindtrick2.htm

Whitney Update

Wow. i havent posted anything about whitney in forever. he's the lost little boy that was around my house or something. anyways for anyone who still remembers him haha

he is on the track team but he wasnt doing well in school [failing actually] so his dad has him punished AND he got a job! and he had himself a little girlfriend but they broke up. APPARENTLY he's hanging out with all of the older kids with cars and shit. and even this girlfriend of his could drive. Whitney is only 14! well anyways he's trying to get his grades straightened out because if he doesnt hes going to get nagged at by me every time he calls!

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SOME GUY POSTED THIS AND I LOVE IT..
This is a tribute to the nice guys. The nice guys that finish last, that never become more than friends, that endure hours of whining and bitching about what assholes guys are, while disproving the very point. This is dedicated to those guys who always provide a shoulder to lean on but restrain themselves to tentative hugs, those guys who hold open doors and give reassuring pats on the back and sit patiently outside the changing room at department stores. This is in honor of the guys that obligingly reiterate how cute/beautiful/smart/funny/sexy their female friends are at the appropriate moment, because they know most girls need that litany of support. This is in honor of the guys with open minds, with laid-back attitudes, with honest concern. This is in honor of the guys who respect a girl’s every facet, from her privacy to her theology to her clothing style.

This is for the guys who escort their drunk, bewildered female friends back from parties and never take advantage once they’re at her door, for the guys who accompany girls to bars as buffers against the rest of the creepy male population, for the guys who know a girl is fishing for compliments but give them out anyway, for the guys who always play by the rules in a game where the rules favor cheaters, for the guys who are accredited as boyfriend material but somehow don’t end up being boyfriends, for all the nice guys who are overlooked, underestimated, and unappreciated, for all the nice guys who are manipulated, misled, and unjustly abandoned, this is for you.This is for that time she left 40 urgent messages on your cell phone, and when you called her back, she spent three hours painstakingly dissecting two sentences her boyfriend said to her over dinner. And even though you thought her boyfriend was a chump and a jerk, you assured her that it was all ok and she shouldn’t worry about it. This is for that time she interrupted the best killing spree you’d ever orchestrated in GTA3 to rant about a rumor that romantically linked her and the guy she thinks is the most repulsive person in the world. And even though you thought it was immature and you had nothing against the guy, you paused the game for two hours and helped her concoct a counter-rumor to spread around the floor. This is also for that time she didn’t have a date, so after numerous vows that there was nothing “serious” between the two of you, she dragged you to a party where you knew nobody, the beer was awful, and she flirted shamelessly with you, justifying each fit of reckless teasing by announcing to everyone: “oh, but we’re just friends!” And even though you were invited purely as a symbolic warm body for her ego, you went anyways. Because you’re nice like that.

The nice guys don’t often get credit where credit is due. And perhaps more disturbing, the nice guys don’t seem to get laid as often as they should. And I wish I could logically explain this trend, but I can’t. From what I have observed on campus and what I have learned from talking to friends at other schools and in the workplace, the only conclusion I can form is that many girls are just illogical, manipulative bitches. Many of them claim they just want to date a nice guy, but when presented with such a specimen, they say irrational, confusing things such as “oh, he’s too nice to date” or “he would be a good boyfriend but he’s not for me” or “he already puts up with so much from me, I couldn’t possibly ask him out!” or the most frustrating of all: “no, it would ruin our friendship.” Yet, they continue to lament the lack of datable men in the world, and they expect their too-nice-to-date male friends to sympathize and apologize for the men that are jerks. Sorry, guys, girls like that are beyond my ability to fathom. I can’t figure out why the connection breaks down between what they say (I want a nice guy!) and what they do (I’m going to sleep with this complete ass now!). But one thing I can do, is say that the nice-guy-finishes-last phenomenon doesn’t last forever. There are definitely many girls who grow out of that train of thought and realize they should be dating the nice guys, not taking them for granted. The tricky part is finding those girls, and even trickier, finding the ones that are single..

So, until those girls are found, I propose a toast to all the nice guys. You know who you are, and I know you’re sick of hearing yourself described as ubiquitously nice. But the truth of the matter is, the world needs your patience in the department store, your holding open of doors, your party escorting services, your propensity to be a sucker for a pretty smile. For all the crazy, inane, absurd things you tolerate, for all the situations where you are the faceless, nameless hero, my accolades, my acknowledgement, and my gratitude go out to you. You do have credibility in this society, and your well deserved vindication is coming.

post edit... i felt like it was its own topic

i never understood why people read novels that are basically so close to real life that they might as well be picking up a non-fiction biography or book on an actual event.

CAPTAIN BIG TITS McCOY

i was talking to a friend last night and i really got to thinking about my past. when i was in highschool i was really very happy. and i think that because i was really happy i laughed a lot. everything was so funny, i would laugh until my abs hurt. [i had a laughing spell last night which what made me think about it] but i honestly couldnt remember the last time i laughed that incredibly hard. i had a friend named kellen and another named ivonne in highschool and grade school. with the both of them life was just a little more spicy* for lack of a better word* it was funnier. maybe its just this year of my life. its been super hard. because i remember a year ago i was chilling with robbie and we would laugh like that. and it was good.we had friends and nicknames [i'm the captain at your service] and it was younger and funner[its not a word] and funnier, and the whole world was infront of us. but this year i have lost so much that its hard to think about ever being that alive and happy and free. maybe i'll get over it.

going to go see the chee weez tomorrow at the varsity! yay

Business Proposal

so i got proposed to[marriage proposal] tonight by someone who only wants to marry me b/c he's a marine and can get free housing--> a contract marriage. i can already hear the wedding bells in the distance...

books... to hell with them

maybe fiction is the boring part. fantasy the turn off. imagination the frivolous task. but why cant people just pick up a book? is it so hard not to  hear anymore... like not hear the words... like not turn on the television... like not watch the movie based on the 1978 novel? book on tape, book on screen, book in flames [451 degrees thats all it takes.] sometimes real life can be more irrational, more incomprehensible, more cruel, and unforgiving than anything one could ever imagine, BUT why have to WATCH it. one can feel without having to observe or watch. i can emote a murder without witnessing one on the silver screen. books can bring passion, torture, love, loneliness, etc a life of their own that is only minimalized when being materialized.

reality are us

ever stop and think why people are so curious to read, watch, observe, snoop in other people's lives. this american infactuation with reality as if their own reality isn't enough 'real' for them. I'm the same way. i love to look through everyone's blogger just to see how someone else thinks and writes and spells and jokes. its cute and its candid which is why i like it. i like the fact that unless i comment they probably wont know i read them. when we type anyone can read. strangers who barely care....

not much to say:

sooooo my aunt needed my car again and i lent it to her. now im carless again and i'm bored. all day i've been bored hehe. its cool though. hopefully i get a ride to the br. it would be cool to have something to do.

I miss Bryan

i miss doing quirky things in the middle of the night in the name of spontaneity. i find it sad knowing how much fun we had together and how it all went away. *tear*

CHRISTIAN

christian is a beautiful man and a wonderful boyfriend who spends his life trying to make me happy and living for me. he deserves perfection. i miss being perfect for you christian

friendly strangers

Lately many people that i had written off in my life are coming back... it is so strange trying to talk to someone that knows SO MUCH about your life because you shared a lot of it with them, but have been pretending as if that person is a complete stranger or doesnt exist. wow starting over... or maybe it isnt starting over for me; maybe it just a continuation but just in a different way. we could never be the way we were so we are going to have to settle for the way we are.

FIRST FIG

My candle burns at both ends;
It will not last the night;
But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends---
It gives a lovely light!

----Edna St. Vincent Millay

there are those that try to make me happy, and they do a good job........ really. its just that there are so many things on my mind. so many different factors that act upon my emotions that it is difficult to choose one emotion and stick with it. in general i would say that i'm a happy person and that there are certain aspects of my life that i am unhappy about: it just so happens that those certain aspects are HUGE circumstances that weigh heavily upon my emotions. i am surprised, actually, when i think of the people in my life that want me to be happy, i feel like i hurt so many people that by now i should have run out of helpful souls. i love and appreciate my friends and my loves and my family. i barely deserve such attention and delicacy.

To Robbie

no we havent spoken in a long time. i think since February... can you believe it almost a year kinda? we were best friends but things change... i hope you are well. i wish you well. its interesting that you found this blogger but its cool if you read. i welcome everyone i know to read.

peace easy robbie

i've really been out of it lately. sad and happy, confused and clear everything and anything :) but i'm getting better. i've been chilling in baton rouge a lot. i'm really starting to get freaked out knowing that school is just around the corner. i havent gone to a class since august and that was only like 3 classes. what if i really mess up my grades from lack of education? if you know me you know that my gpa is the most important thing to me right now. i hope i do well. i need to get back to a routine; back to normality

LOTS OF NEW PICS ON MY PIC PAGE CLICK HERE

**Remember the link for the picture page is always at the bottom of the left sidebar :)

i hate it

some dude: listen to this... one time we all went to Nicaragua and decided to go clubbing but outside the club we almost got in a fight with a whole bunch of mexicans

Jillien: there were mexicans in nicaragua!?!?

i honestly didnt know he meant nicaraguans... but isnt that funny? if you are latino you are considered by many to be mexican even if you are in nicaragua or maybe honduras or perhaps guatemala, costa rica, belize, el salvador, panama, columbia, argentina, venezuela, etc etc etc there are many different countries. and we are all called different things. i mean just because you are from north america are you called canadian? i mean its cool but at the same time its not?

Lance Corporal Underground

christian just called me. we were on the phone for about an hour. i think i cried like 75% of the time. he got promoted yesterday. YAY! and he misses me. he says that i'm the only thing that gets him through the days; "knowing that we are going to be happy." i'm still crying as i'm typing this. i know you know why.

disappointing

the saints... wow...

you know those moments when you suddenly see the truth. for a long time my life as been very blurry. i didnt know what to do. i didnt know the right decision. what was right for me. what was going to make me happy. and i was close to making a decision towards the wrong thing. my life has changed dramatically since august. i lost christian, i lost my home, i lost my jobs, i lost my school. and then i start gaining a new life and new friends and new experiences. and new everything but the thing is is that i was just meant to wait. wait until things got better again. i was going to make changes, permanent changes in my life. but that is not the thing to do. i know that right now that that is not the right thing to do.

Freud got something right...

i spent 12-14 hours yesterday racking my brain through a problem of mine that i cant seem to let go. [probably because its in my face everyday] well for the first time in my life i reveal my humanity and disclose every nook and crany to my friend, Andy. so andy and i discuss this problem off and on for the entirity of yesterday. he gave me his advice; i told him my vices. I disclosed some background information, and he gave his opinion. and through all of this discussion, advices, interrogatories, and what not... I had a freudian slip and answered my own question. it just jumped out of my mouth in t he most awkward of times. both me and andy looked shocked and were quiet for a couple of seconds before andy starts jumping up and down and pointing at me saying,"thats it... thats it... you answered it. there's no more to say" it was the craziest thing that has ever happened. i guess because this was the first time that i let everything go. I wasnt super woman [like i always try to be]. i always want to solve thigns on my own. keep it bottled in. i never really talk about my 'feelings' or anything like that. and it took SEVERAL hours but it happened. i got my epiphany. wow

What if i only do things because i'm expected to or because i'm 'supposed' to. i wonder what really makes me happy. am i happy because i've accomplished the expectations of others or am i happy because i am truly happy.

another Jillien and Andy random moment

1:30 AM Jillien and Andy hold hands and jump into a freezing cold pool with all of our clothes on.
1:37 AM Jillien and Andy are uncontrollably shivering in a freezing cold pool with all of our clothes on.
1:39 AM Jillien and Andy get out of the pool, strip down, towel up and go back inside.

so i'm in a philosophical journey again

i was lucky enough to ask those life changing questions, question my faith, search for answers, study other philosophies really early in life. I'm very young and yet I've come to know who I am and what I want by 20. [I've actually known for a while] I did the whole antifoundationalism, anarchism, Taoism, Satanism, Catholicism thing. I've studied and read and learned and lived and questioned, negated, affirmed, believed all sorts of things. And I've finally finished... kind of. And now I've found and individual who is older than me, but in a point in his life similiar to a point in my life about 3-5 years ago. And its hard for me to answer some of his questions. Questions that I, myself, have asked and answered. Its like I don't remember. I guess it wasn't the actual answer, but the peace that the answer brought to my life that was important. and since i can't answer it for him, he's going to have to do it himself. which is cool because the only thing i can do is point him in the right direction.

7 things

7 things i plan to do before i die:
1. get married
2. become rich
3. become mayor of new orleans, then gov'na and then on to the white house... seriously
4. star in a play
5. travel the world
6. adopt a child from a 3rd world country
7. a tummy tuck

7 things i can do:
1. sing
2. get good grades
3. type quickly
4. nurture
5. stand up for myself
6. dance
7. pay attention for long periods of time

7 things i cannot do:
1. lie
2. pull-ups
3. hold my tongue
4. say no
5. touch dirty dishes or sponges
6. sleep on dirty sheets
7. wink

7 things that attract me to the opposite sex:
1. looks mainly a handsome face
2. sense of humor
3. body
4. dance skills
5. intelligence
6. popularity
7. clothes

7 things that i say most often:
1. geez louise
2. tell me something nice
3. i love you
4. some sort of curse word
5. porfa and conper
6. god bless you
7. thanks

7 celebrity crushes:
1. MEL GIBSON
2. ryan reynolds
3. paul walker
4. angelina jolie
5. the dude from the notebook who used to play young hercules
6. the dude from not another teen movie. the brunette guy
7. brad pitt

7 people i want to do this:
i dont know that many people lol jk

i guess i would like all of celebrity crushes to do it.

I'M LATE I'M LATE I'M LATE for a very important date

I went to the LSU game in Nashville, TN. It was a 12 hour road trip, and i actually didnt have as good of a time as i would have liked. the entire trip was STRESSFUL. a vacation was STRESSFUL. the individuals i was traveling with were way too strung out. they made going out and partying a stressful situation... which makes is no FUN. for example: we had been in the car for 12 hours. we FINALLY arrive in nashville at midnight. (all the bars close at 3) we get to the apartment of the sister of one of the travelers and the moment we walk in the door we are already getting YELLED at to hurry up and leave to go to a bar. they had already called a taxi and were waiting for us. we all had to rush and get out the house. i smelled like sweaty ass and was not about to go ANYWHERE without makeup and changing my clothes. i mean C'MON! so i'm getting shouted to hurry which was really pissing me off because i HONESTLY changed my clothes and did my hair and makeup in 7 minutes flat!$#@ so anyways we get in the taxi with everyone and i forgot my id and another friend forgot his wallet [i mean what do you expect! we just walked in the door and now we're rushing out. its a miracle we didnt forget more]

but basically everything was that stressful. everything was the rushed. like it was the biggest deal in the world to get there. I'm the type of person that likes things to happen when they happen. no rush to go out and party. the party starts when we get there.. ya know?

Subtle HILARITY

"I always tell the truth.. even when i lie, i'm honest" hilarious.

i met a hilarious dude in baton rouge. you know those type of people that are just simply funny but you can NEVER repeat the funniness. they are just funny. they just make you laugh. they don't say jokes [well they might] but its just a natural easy simple funniness. the way they hold eyes contact or word sentences. I don't know how to explain it but I'm impressed

The Infamous in the BR

i went to baton rouge this weekend so that i could experience my first LSU game... WELLLLL i ended up not going to the game and just watching it at walkons which was still just as fun, but the fact that LSU blew 21-0 lead really brought down the energy level. i met a whole bunch of great new people. its really funny because i rarely hang out with other latinos.  i was happy and i had fun. i was looking forward to going back today [friday] to watch the chee weez but those plans didnt work out so now i'm chilling.

NOPD is grrrr

So my friend Cool was stuck at the Royal Sonesta on Bourbon yesterday when they issued the mandatory evacuation. So i picked him up. brought him to power blvd. then TO BATON ROUGE. i had to lie to get my way into new orelans and to get back in... i was soo pissed off. i'm trying to get on the cresent city connection and the cop is like where are you headed.


Jillien:"Um to New Orleans"
cop:"well nobodys allowed in. theres a mandatory evactuation"
Jillien:"i understand that. thats why i'm going in my brother is working on Bourbon Street and he doesnt have a car to evacuate. i'm picking him up so that he can leave.
cop:"[now redirecting her]no mam cant let you in everyone is evacuating
Jillien [now screaming at the top of her lungs and in the middle of the road]"THATS WHY IM GOING IN TO EVACUATE!!! YOU ARE NOT LISTENING TO ME.

[jillien turns around and goes back on the overhead expressway... she sweet talks a different officer and that wonderful gentleman lets her in to save her older brother!]

the end

Its not perfect.

Algunas veces me olvido que puedo escribir, leer, y hablar en español. Es difícil viviendo en los Estados Unidos porque aquí solo se habla ingles.  cuando voy a l’escuela o mi trabajo solo hablo Ingles. Y todos mis amigos hablan Ingles; no tengo chance de practicar mucho. Pero no quiero olvidar como hablar o escribir. Quisiera saber como comunicar perfectamente. Poder enseñar a mis hijos, en el futuro, como escribir, leer, y hablar. Talvez cuando creso voy a poder ir a Honduras o Guatemala mas, y quedar me ahí por un tiempo satisfactorio.

i need a job

so i'm chilling at home and i receive a call from napoleon... remember him>? he's the attorney i used to work for on st. Charles. well turns out that the legal assistant he got to replace me after i left is lost and cannot be found due to the hurricane. he thinks she's in a shelter. well he needs me to work for him. i guess until i go back to school in january. its going to be funny trying to find criminals in all this mess. 'the smart ones will have changed their names and fled the damn state, gotten jobs offshore and gotten a new ssn.' according to nap. but i'm sure they arent all that smart. anyway the problem is i KNOW i;ll be doing all the work and that sucks because i dont really like the type of law he practices. but o well. a paycheck is a paycheck.

come to think of it i havent received my money from the tanning salon. i think i'll do that first thing in the morning.

Katrina...

my friend jimmy rabb took some pics of NOLA i know you see enough on the news but i thought it would be cool to have some on my site. visit my pic page.

I wish i were an oscar meyer weiner.

i'm at home you guys. w/ internet and cable and electricity and running water. not everyone is this wonderfully lucky. i'm truly blessed. my house okay. my family, though they lost their homes, are safe.

but i miss my scene. i miss the warehouse district

i miss my friends. i miss my walmart. i miss my walgreens photolab... i miss school and i miss work. gosh

a few cool quotes since i've lived in a hotel

"Women. Can't live with them, and they can't pee standing up"**Major League II

another one was concerning a whore house....

"C'mon guys; they smell like fish, but they taste like chicken." **Ritchie Valence Story

"i wanna go home."
"why?"
"because i want to"
"i really value the power of your argument" **forgot the name of the movie

anyway these things have kept me giggling so i thought i would share it.

Im a Displaced New Orleanian from Jefferson Parish

I'm sitting at a computer in West Baton Rouge Parish library. i dont have much to say except that everything sucks. i have lost an entire semester at school. the people at LSU advised me to sit out a semester. my mom is employed with the same company but in florida so we leave on sunday to go over and around louisiana to florida, and i have no more computer or cable... which means no more mrs. foster's !!!!!!NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

this also means that i cannot keep in touch with anyone. 504 area codes arent working, and since i have no computer i cannot come on the internet and communicate.

let me know how yall are doing. you know my number or just post and tell me you are okay. i love you all. and i hope to post soon. bi

FIOB - 9 out of 10 Women Agree, Peter Hynd is a Sex MACHINE!

FIOB - 9 out of 10 Women Agree, Peter Hynd is a Sex MACHINE!

AUGUST 24 the toothpaste tube. good reading

Carter Carter bo Barter Banana fana fo Farter...

So i have this teacher that i'm already in conflict with and it is only the first week of school. She HONESTLY thinks she is the smartest teacher at Our Lady of Holy Cross and THE WORLD.

"I'm a scholar..." "Not only am i educated in Nursing, English, Business but i'm well known in world history" "if you dont have a 3.8 i wouldnt even bother applying to graduate school" WOW get your head out of your @$$.

She assigned pages 1-40 but the funny thing is that page one is an introduction and page 40 is in the middle of a story... AND we have a 300 word essay due on an introduction and half a story by tuesday. I know that 300 words isnt a lot, but its ridiculous to ask for considering that the entire 2.5 hours we spent in her class all she did was talk about herself. i'm really not exaggerating.

i think i might drop the class. but i know i need it for my major. and i would have to replace it with an elective. what do you think? suck it up this is the real world hunny, or drop that class and take your chances another semester??

Denny's

Me and Erika go to denny's yesterday after my first period class. i go up to the cashier who is writing down the list for the tables. [i never tell people my right name because they dont understand the name Jillien. its like an alien language from Jupiter. when i say 'jillien' they hear ggoweknadnoel. its weird. So my name for YEARS now is Lu. pronounced Lou.] so i tell the lady "Lu" and she writes "L" and i say no 'l' 'u', "Lu" and she write "LD" i'm like wow... My name is Lu "L" "U" LU, LU, LU
Erika= "not Lead, LU"

what is with these fast food places?? i thnk its just me. stupidity and ridiculousness just follows me

subway

So i went to subway for lunch and there is this worker there that i've seen before but i honestly didnt think she was going to last long enough to see her again. I cant tell if she's mentally retarded or loaded on drugs. its really weird and its honestly took away my hunger. she looks aimlessly into the air. "LOOK AT ME GIRL and give me some more MAYO. I NEED MAYO!!!!" *i hate you* i murmur as i walk down to the register.

My first day of school

So yesterday was my first day of class. i have human nutrition first thing in the morning. it seems like its going to be fun but the teacher is kind of screwy. she spent 20 mins out of class looking for a dry erase pen. like it was THAT important. i was like oooookay. and then erika and i went to denny's before my second class CIS. a computer class for freshmen and the computer illiterate. well me and erika are juniors and we are just taking it. its very sad. but the teacher didnt show up after 20 mins so we got up and left. hehe no one can be 20 mins late. thats just ridiculous. anyway i hope this is going to be a good semester. i need to graduate summa cum laude or however you spell it so. i need to keep my gpa up. wish me luck

Kiss ©

A fairy's kiss upon the night
the stars above pale but bright
was the setting of the fight
against the evils of that night

the mist was heavy dark and ill
in ignorance the gods ate their fill
and now the spirits will do their will
upon the maidens they stalk and kill

and as the earth danced and sang
shone the heavens new and young
and on the tree tops they all hanged
a lesson to learn to hold their tongues

everyone turned and hid his eyes
this truth their lips would now deny.
as the earth embraces this lie
to continue its fake and empty life

tears and blood created rivers
the souls of humans sent such a shiver
that the mountain caps fell and covered
the earth, and all the inhabitants smothered.

Family ties

I went to metro last night and saw my cousin. Honestly i think in the last 10 years we've seen each other 3 times. and he lives like 25 mins away. Last time i saw him was at TJ's. isnt that sad that the only time i see my family is when we are out partying?

he didnt even know my age. well i dont know his either. hehe that just ended my argument. :)

But its good to see we enjoy the same stuff. maybe we have a lot in common and just dont know it.

The Talented Steinar

So i've corresponded with a photographer from Iceland for a little bit now... I want to work with him sooooo badly. he's the absolute best. What? You dont believe me. See for yourself click here. See i told you so! well anyway he's coming to the USA [hell yea] for 3 days, but he's staying in new york. He's so close yet so far away. very sad *tear*

ODE to BRYAN

Let me explain the wonderfulness that is Bryan to me. He makes me laugh constantly, not because he's always cracking jokes but because he's witty and sarcastic and just subtly funny. He's not just the type of friend that you call when you are bored. He's the kind of friend that your bored if you dont call. He makes you feel comfortable. he isnt overbearing. He's incredibly INTELLIGENT. more so than one individual should be allowed to be. He's good looking and He's going to be an astronaut/plastic surgeon when he grows up... okay the plastic surgeon thing is in the air, but the astronaut thig is totally TRUE! it would be hard to find someone as good and entertaining as bryan. he's one of those friends that you just want to never let go. He's going to be big one day. and he deserves it.

doesnt that make you totally sick?! someone that perfect?

yaawn

my life of excitement has been dealt a tranquilizer large enough to sedate a large whale. nothing is really going on right now which i guess is a good thing because before was a little too hectic. BUT a lot is near. Christian leaving, school starting, work increasing... I was doing a little too much dancing and partying and not enough loving my boyfriend, my family, and my off time. now i'm bored as hell and no one is left to pick it up.

O MY GOODNESS...

your prayers work. or maybe i was praying enough for the both of us because guess what!>!>!>!?!??!?1/1 HIS deployment is postponed. everyone else leaves tonight but CHRISTIAN leaves next week!!! wow. i'm happy for now. i know that my sadness is coming soon but it sure feels good right now

my Christian

ok so i just got a call from christian saying that he leaves for IRAQ tomorrow. okay! i'm kind of devastated. please pray. pray its just a drill and that i'll have a few more days to talk to him. and if he does have to go pray that he's safe and perfect like he was when he left. just...pray.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA

EVERYONE WISH ERIKA A WONDERFUL 20th BIRTHDAY. HER SPACE IS LINKED AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE. PICTURES OF ERIKA COMING SOON.. GIVE ME TILL THE END OF THE AFTERNOON HEHE

here's some more

Here they are!

watching tv...

I'm a cartoon watching fiend. I'm addicted to Camp Lazlo, Madame Foster's, Spongebob, Jimmy Neutron, etc. Of course i watch the occasional Family Guy and Simpson episodes, but its the 'kiddy' cartoons that i enjoy the most. maybe its their simplicity and witt. dont get me wrong Family Guy and the Simpson's are HILARIOUS. i just dont work my schedule around watching them like i do these baby cartoons. Why do you think that is? maybe i'm the only one left. the only Toy R Us kid left. hehe or maybe not.
In a way i think most cartoons have become really stupid and gross. Snot and nastiness, you know?? they're barely funny. It just that they're directed towards children. Like for example a little while ago i was actually awake in time to catch saturday morning cartoons. and there was this one cartoon in particular that caught my eye because of its stupidity. Its a cartoon about Sherlock Holmes. BUT its in the future. So Watson is actually a robot or something like that. and there are people, cyborgs and 1/2 people 1/2 cyborgs. its so strange and stupid!!! what is wrong with the world?
But i guess the same could be said about some cartoons from back in the day... does anyone remember Rocko's Modern Life? or the Lil Bits?

Whitney Update

whitney called last night. He likes his new school, but he thinks his world geography teacher is a "crack head".... lol anyway hes going to do track and baseball and basketball. He calls my mom to ask her for help in spanish. its funny

post script: he also said that his world geography teacher is always talking about his wife and how she's hard to be married to and how women are 'cold natured'. HAHAHA thats wonderful to tell 14 year old kids huh?! lol i thought it was pretty funny

this is what i want. ...

Okay that sounds kinda freaky, but i've always been infactuated with the whole club kid club scene. dark, morbid, juvenile, and taboo. i just recently finished reading Disco Bloodbath (Party Monster) and it just reinforced the necessity for me to become a club scene club leader. Its all about the manipulation of reality. All my life has been so straight forward, so focused, and determined. One day i hope to escape and just have a blood feast. wanna come?

My last day

So its a bitter sweet moment leaving the firm.
Napoleon took me to lunch at this Thai restaurant, it was interesting. I had never eaten thai before. i had chicken curry and it tasted like chicken and bamboo shoots in a black liquorish sauce. *spit spit* but the thai spring rolls were AWESOME. i have had spring rolls before but i dont like them. THESE on the other hand were really good.

He also bought me cake from this french pastery shop on st. charles. they were pretty and tasted like flavored cakes. not much else to say but it was all a nice gesture and i really appreciated it.

PICTURES FROM MY RECENT BUSYNESS COMING SOON.....

STARRING : THE INFAMOUS : JM. = the stupid smartypants [Listen to her as she mispronounces an abundance of words like enema and satisfaction. As she asks people questions like, "And you didnt die????" and really mean it]

featuring: Christian D. =the sleeping wonder [marvel as he falls asleep on command. Be amazed as he is impossibly awakened. sleep for 23458 hours? easy peasy!]

with appearances by : Patrick "G" = the non-discriminatory lover [Come one come all: notice as he approaches and retreats- "Hey Mister Hey Mister, I only gots 2 teef", let'em have it.. with noooo problem. "Hey mister hey mister! I'm on medicaid", Let'em have it... with noooo problem]


YAY

My Trip

This was a great trip. i had so much fun. we watched a lot of movies. all of my favorite movies like blazing saddles, party monster, lusty latina ladies jk but not really. hehe anyway. we didnt fight which is a feat within itself. its awesome. we havent fought in forever. we are getting along so well. for our first year we were GREAT. we got along so well it was sickening. then in our 2nd year all we did was fight. it was terrible, a disaster. now in our 3rd year which just began in May is incredible. we are old selves again. nothing but love :)

NAPOLEON AND JILLIEN DEPART

ok so tomorrow is my last day at the firm *tear* *tear*; i know this is going to sound crazy but i'm kind of sad. i dont know its just that i made some cool friends and had a great position and made great pay and worked in a cool building with a cool copy machine. and i saw michael hingle once cuz he's on the same floor as me... you know MICHAEL HINGLE "before you accept a quick check *rips check* check with me !" he's famous. well anyway.

o my goodness it has been forever since i've posted.. well here a quick summary of my busyness:

work
work
work
went to north caroline for 4 days to visit christian. last visit before he goes to iraq FOREVER.
cry
cry
cry
work.

well there you have it. leave me comments on how much you've missed my presence and posts yay

Ice ©

i suppose
it could be nice
to float
and sink
and exist as ice

cold
and hard
then melt away
then flow away
to freeze someday

AWW i hate you

i was supposed to go tubing today to celebrate the end of my birthday but of course i got scheduled into work and now my friends are going to celebrate w/o me because they already set the trip up with the boat people and what not. so i suck and the world sucks right now. i worked friday and work today(saturday) and sunday and monday and tuesday and wednesday. AND THEN i leave for NC on thursday. my gosh i have to leave the state to get a day off. what is up with that? but no one wants to hear me wah wah wah about stuff like this. imma go now.

Willy Wonka vs. Charlie and the Choc. Factory

hmm okay well first let me state that i'm probably the BIGGEST Tim Burton fan ever forever ever. and also let me say that Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory is like one of my all time favorite movies that i've ever seen. it has a lot of subtle themes in it. its wonderful

Okay now to my post:

I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory this afternoon. and while it was classic Tim, and filled with great details from the novel. it was not as good as the original. the umpas were cool but they didnt express the same neutrality, they were scary kind of. i dont know. the songs had cool beats but it didnt convey the same messages. you know? it was funny and good but not as good, and in other aspects much better. in other words you cannot compare the two. they are 2 completely different movies about the same book.

:(

chrsitian left today. he wont be home for about a year; he goes to war on August 20 and this is his last trip home.. its very sad. thats the crazy thing about the marine corps. or any branch of the military i guess, they FORCE you to leave everything and yet the people that join choose to do so. christian is excited to go. i'm not but he is. he wanted this. why would anyone want this?

He was home for about 9 days. it was a good trip. we had some hickups but all in all it was wonderful. The trip to Mississippi, late night IHOP, and my birthday all added up to some good memories. I'm happy.

I'm at work by the way. completely miserable like always, but i'm looking towards the positive and getting off at 3PM yay yay yay!

TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY

Yes its true.... my birthday is TODAY. July 27, 1985 or '79 depending on where i'm trying to get in. Thanks to everyone who remembered. and everyone who meant to remember. I have no plans for today but if you have any suggestions... hit me up.

Has anyone ever thought to his/herself how freaky staged pictures are? like those fake cheesy smiles creep me out. i think the most beautiful capture of an individual is when he/she is laughing. those real smiles when you can honestly see the true person underneath. when they dont know they are being photographed and if that millisecond hadn't been photographed no one would have ever even noticed it happened. its kind of like the picture stole the moment from history, and now it only exists in a 4x6 matte print. snatched right out of the air

easy like sunday morning

i had the most incredible sunday. yesterday i went over to my uncle wally and aunt chickie's house in waveland. i took christian and 'the little ones'. They swam the ENTIRE DAY.! it was incredible. christian wasnt any better. they ate and swam. we listened to my uncle's band rock out for a little bit. it was awesome. good good day.

I heard from Whitney last night when i was at tj's. i wish he wouldnt have called me at 12 at night he probably would have caught me at home and i could have spoken to him. i talked to him for like 2 minutes then i had to let him go. i hadn't heard from him since he left; he must have been having a good time. that makes me happy. i'm probably going to call him later.

its really sad. i've noticed that i've become the type of person that doesnt need to stay in touch with anyone... i want to but everything else becomes too important and staying in touch too troublesome. well i CANT do that with Whitney. everyone remind me once a week to call him.

this is a picture of him at 6. i'll find some more recent pictures and post them

I visited blake today and he looks 50689034 TIMES BETTER its wonderful. i really miss him. i want him to go home and i want to visit him all the time. i tried calling everyday since tuesday but his mom and everyone was like he's sleeping... he's not doing well.. everyone can visit thursday and friday.... no answer. I GOT FED UP. and just showed up. i'm happy i did. cuz i got to see him look beautiful.

Christian and I had a great trip last time. i'm not sure what it is about his trip, maybe i'm PMS'ing but i am freaking out about everything. but at the same time he is messing up. he doesnt call me when he says he will and he never wants me to join in. i cant be w/ him and his (my) friends at the same time. it totally sucks. o well

http://www.myspace.com/imtheinfamous

I'm on Myspace now buddies. add me as a friend if you wanna. send me a message if you wanna. and if you dont wanna.. kiss my ass.

he's not worth it. we're done

scary ignorance

so i visit blake at Charity and everyone that works there is RETARDED. more so than one could ever imagine. and they werent very nice. one of the women took 1,523,459,873,402,985 hours just to hand me an admittance card. the other told us to go up the elevator to the 4th floor. we walk out and theres an elevator directly infront of us. we click the up button FOREVER and nothing is happening. by sheer luck we look over and see the other people in the admittance office walking in the opposite direction and an elevator bell sound! SHE DIDNT EVEN TELL US THAT THIS ELEVATOR WAS BROKEN!@!@#$%^$#^% oh and it is hot! in an emergency/ hospital its a muggy musky inferno. and theres a smell.... ew this smell. Blake is lucky i love him because i would never have gone there. but he got transfered to tulane. much better! everyone pray for him please.

one of these days i'm going to stop crying

Remember O most gracious virgin Mary
That never was it known
that anyone who fled to your protection
implored your help
or sought your intercession
was left unaided

inspired, by this confidence
i fly unto thee
o virgin of Virgins, my Mother.
to thee do I come,
before Thee I stand
sinful and sorrowful
O Mother of the Word Incarnate,
despise not my petitions,
but in your mercy hear and answer me.
Amen.

**For You, Blake**

(it might not be perfect, i typed it from memory)

LAST NIGHT!

Act 1 Scene 1 (Mom, Jillien and Whitney sitting watching television on sofa in the living room. Mom and Jillien were watching a medical show w/ much interest, when Whitney comes inside from playing or doing whatever 14 yr. old boys do outside)

Whitney: Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah Blah
Jillien: What did the show just say, mom? Whitney was talking.
Mom: I dont know i couldnt hear
Whitney: BlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlahBlah

Jillien taps Whitney in the side to shut him up.

Whitney: UHHH YOU BROKE MY BONES!
Jillien: What i hardly touched you?!?!
Whitney: you broke my bones you broke my bones
Mom: Jillien you know you are stronger than Whitney.

Jillien Rolls Her Eyes

End of Act 1 Scene 1


****to Whitney's credit he wasnt that pussy-like. but for theatrical purposes i had to embellish.****

because of you ©

Hold me closer
so I can't see
cuz all I need is time to be

and all I need is time to rest
because my life hasn't passed the test
and you can turn and hide away.
but the green is far today

so keep acting like it hasnt happened
and keep acting like it doesnt bother you.
just like it doesnt bother me
because i know the truth.

If you want to help me
all i need from you
is to hold me closer
so I cant see
cuz all i need is time to be.

no sleep sleep for you!

ok so last night i went with my friend, bryan, to see the batman begins movie. (by the way: bryan influences almost 75% of my posts, but anyway) it was a cool movie especially when...well i wont say which parts i dont want to ruin it for those who havent seen it, but there are some pretty wicked parts. the movie didnt let out until 12:30 and he had to be up for 4' in the morning. this is my public apology to bryan. sorry you got at the most 3 hours of sleep last night bryan. :) hope it was worth it.

Superman the ONLY super hero *to me*

okay so the war of the super heroes proves that supposedly batman is the ultimate superhero... the only superhero with no super powers.. it all came down to superman vs batman. well if you ask me. (which of course you didnt but i'm going to voice my opinion anyway because its my blog) batman isnt a superhero to begin w/. he had all of those super suits. he had to put a costume on to be super.. that totally sucks. what if he couldnt get to his cave to get his suit? or something like that occurs. superman was the only SUPER HERO that was a superhero no matter what he was wearing. he had to dress up as a civilian,a regular old joe as his disguise to hide the fact that he was a superhero underneath. all the others were regular people that had to become/transform into superheroes. i guess thats what started my entire infactuation. someone hiding his greatness while all the others have to paint it on. i wonder which one i am sometimes. i'm probably closer to a supervillian... What do you think?

Help me I'm sleepy

So i had to peeeeel myself out of bed this morning. my windows are all boarded up (hurrican precaution) so my room in pitch BLACK. it doesnt help that i hung out by my cousin jasmine's house until 2 in the morning knowing that i had to be downtown st. charles by 9AM. i'm extremely tired and cranky. i just want to close the door to my office laydown on the carpet and go to sleep... I wonder if i should. but then theres always the chance that my attorney's partner (no not life partner) but the other Napoleon Law Firm attorney will come in looking for something in my office. Decisions Decisions... what is a desperate exhausted girl supposed to do? I' m gunna go lay down now.

IM GOING CRAZY WITH ALL THESE PICTURES

These are me and my girls out and having a good time.. the beautiful Cheryl, Toni, and of course yours truly me, The Infamous. *JM*

PIctures of my Labor Day (4th of July same damn thing) Weekend

evacuating

my friend bryan just exactly expressed how i feel about this upcoming evacuation: i hope my parents dont make me evacuate; i cant think of anything better to do after a long week of work than being stuck in traffic with my parents.

Refreshing

So I finally hung out with one of my oldest friends yesterday.. well last night. We grew up together. we have lived 6 houses down from each other for literally the last 20 years. All of our lives. We grew up and kinda grew apart. but last night i finally stopped by his house after he called me, and we hung out till around 3 in the morning. We went swimming in his back yard. He told me a story about calling Dominoes that had me almost shitting myself laughing. It was just an all around wonderful night of playing "Can you see it?" (inside joke thingy)

FOAM ©

white
pearl
let it hurl
let it burst
quench my thirst

a body covered in foam

chiseled abs
slippery skin
come on baby
let me in
come one baby
take me out
come on baby
make me shout
louder longer finger fondle
in we go
up we go
down we fall
just let it flow
wrestling mouths
in horny crowds
all together now
in the privacy
of my own foam.

late night worry wart

I hope everyone had a great fourth of July. Christian just left at 10PM to drive back to North Carolina. I'm incredibly worried because I dont know anyone who can spend the entire day in the hot sun playing on the beach and not be tired as balls. I hope that he makes it home on time and in one piece. This was a wonderful visit. We got along better than we have in over a year. It feels good knowing that your best friend is still a good companion. Anyway. Work again tomorrow morning. I sure did enjoy my first day off in a long time though!

I never knew God was into dark comedy**

Do you ever wonder how things exist the way they do. Ok let me clear up that sentence. You know when you wake up in the middle of the night and run straight into the wall. No one is there to see it or to laugh at you but you feel horribly embarrased... Is it because God is really laughing his ass off at you? Or when you spend 2 hours getting ready to go out in wonderful anticipation and then you throw up all over self by the end of the night. lol its just amazing little things that occur that seem out of your control but in SOMEONES control... who's>? one will never know. or maybe.... *DUM DUM DUM* << that was dramatic inflection.

**inspired by: The Almighty Frigg: http://frigg.blogspot.com/2005/06/its-official-god-is-mocking-us-tonight.html

apples and oranges

okay so i have no idea what i'm doing. i want to fix things on this blog but because i'm mentally retarded i dont think it will be possible. if anyone can help please leave contact information on the commenters commenting. i can be like madeline :) it would be fun.

what on earth to type!

I like the way I always have something to say until I have to say something. I'm sure at this point it doesn't matter. No one is reading. I guess this is the time in my blog life where I reveal my entire essence and true self. Hmmm if only I weren't so shallow. lol anyway. you've stumbled upon the blog of JM. A New Orleanian who dances and parties about 4 days a week and works on average 6 days a week. Always on the go, except when i'm not. Does that make sense? o well